So I am back to my sweetest spot. It is all the same around here, but I am not able to associate the same peace I always associate with this place. Something has definitely changed. Probably it is time I realize that it is indeed me who has changed.

I have turned down two good opportunities in the past one month. But, it is fine as long as I do so, with the approval of MY conscience. As long as it is MY decision. But what I have done today, turning down another GREAT opportunity, is something that I have not decided. And it hurts when I feel that I have let down my ethics.

If you have not already figured out, what I am referring to, then let me elaborate. I am referring to the great IIT student poltu. What I seriously despise is the hollowness of democracy as it is practiced here. And this is exactly what has come to haunt me today. Instead of being my normal self, which would not have let my principles of rationality and righteousness down, I became a part of this hollowness, by agreeing to what I did not agree to.

Now dont ask me elaborate upon this further.

Probably, I am meant for bigger things in life. The post of a Class Convener is something which clearly does not justify the kind of a person I am. There is definitely more worth in studying Prolog for the "fighter" PL assignment or for that matter spending more time than AA on Fast Fourier Transforms for our DHD project. Clearly.

But what concerns me is that I could not be the change that I could have. Nevertheless.

The feeling one would derive by saying, "Your mail is encrypted using the Encryption Algorithm given by me", is definitely far greater than any other feeling. Clearly.

A happy me again. Dont know why, but such incidents and the thoughts following it, bring out more positivity from within me.

I dont know how bad I write. And neither do I know how far I will be able to carry you along. I will still write not because I want you to read it but because I want to write it.

I will not waste "precious" Internet space in talking about why Prof. Patney got angry or what made me walk into the Physics tutorial 30 minutes late. I would rather get straight to things that matter. Things that are close to my heart.

First Things First. Today was Mum's Birthday. I called her up right in the middle of the night only to hear my brother's very very sleepy voice. Nevertheless, I wished her "virtually" then and there and finally "really" in the morning with my brother screaming in the background "Hehe hehe Maine tujhse Pehle Wish kar diya hehe hehe" in his very own typical style.

The other important thing was stuff Bala Sir talked about in the class. No it wasn't any great idea I had been thinking about for the past week but, was beyond that. He asked us our dream in life, what we see ourselves as in the next 10 years ? He inspired me (I don't know if others got inspired too) to think, to dream, to realize my full potential. He reminded me of my dream in life, something I had forgotten in the worthless race of proving my point. Thanks ! Wow !

But the most important thing that defined the day was what happened on the airport where I had gone to drop my brother for his flight. Hoping I would get sufficient time to script that down soon enough. :)